A restless night last night, but full of intensely stressful dreams about my separated husband. We are still sharing a house, but he wasn't home last night, and I'm beginning to think he is seeing someone.
It's been a month.
What. The. Fuck.
Today has already been a challenge to not cry at work. I hate crying at work. And I've had to push it back all day long.
Oh God, that's got to be horrible. Sending good thoughts your way. I hope this co-habitating thing ends soon...maybe I have to refer to older blog posts to find out.
ReplyDeleteHang in there.
If he is indeed seeing someone, and he doesn't have the decency to behave in a manner that recognizes the delicacy of your situation (read: don't be painfully obvious and stay out all night) then it is time for him to go. I am not sure why you are co-habitating but it is a constant reminder for you, adding insult to injury I would think, and you deserve the chance to begin healing. Sorry, that was all very presumptous.
ReplyDeleteI too am sending good thoughts....
thank you both. i needed that reinforcement that he is indeed acting appallingly.
ReplyDeletefunny how one's brain can fool itself sometimes, isn't it?