What is it that makes it possible for people to open their heart, again and again, in spite of experiencing heartbreak and pain? When we are small, we learn that hot things will burn, and for the most part, we avoid hot things that can burn us. Why is it that we can remember physical pain--pain that resides primarily in the body--and not remember emotional pain?
I have tried so hard to not let myself shut down; over and over, I have allowed people into my life that ultimately prove they don't have my best interests at heart. And no matter how much you keep those people at a distance, they always end up hurting you.
My heart is screaming out today. I'm just a complete wreck, and I promised myself, over and over, that I wouldn't let myself go here ever again.
BUT HERE I AM.
Fuck.
Yeah? Well here I am. So if there's any way I can help, like I said... here I am.
ReplyDeleteTake care, Boo.
God, I don't deserve you guys. I really don't. Thank you so much. Just knowing that helps more than you can possibly know.
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I'd give you a big bear hug and a sloppy wet puppy dog kiss if I were near you.
ReplyDeleteWhat TK said. Well, with me--but you know what I mean. The world is full of people who will hurt you even when they don't mean to. Don't let that change the amazing person that you are.
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